post #12 - plans, paintings, procrastination & big f*ck-off magic: my 2025 resolution...

so, i'm officially claiming 2025 as my year of magic - rebellious, unapologetic magic & i'm proud to say that my new year's resolution is: 

“F*ck Normal, I Want Magic“ 

i'm not going to pretend it’s going to be all rainbows & unicorns though, cause that sneaky wee f*cker that loves to rear his ugly head just when you’re about to slay: procrastination, never seems to get the memo to  

“just f*ck all the way off!” 

but before you think i’m here to preach the usual ‘hustle harder’ sh*te, let me set the record straight: this isn’t about must try harder & beating myself up for procrastinating - it’s about owning it, understanding it, & flipping it into something powerful 

so no, i'm not going to beat myself up for procrastinating - instead, i'm going to embrace it! 

yep, you read right – embrace it! 

reorganising my sock drawer 

but no, this doesn’t mean i'll spend the year alphabetising my spice rack or reorganising my sock drawer like a bazillion times, it just means i now know there’s such a thing as

positive procrastination

& it’s actually my heroine in disguise! 

according to Stacie Bloomfield (& other experts, too many to list btw) not all procrastination is bad

sometimes, believe it or not, it’s exactly what you need to limber up for the main event 

when i discovered this it was nearly as amazing as buying a dress & realising later it had pockets!

lemme explain... 

this last year, instead of diving headfirst into things that scared the absolute sh*t out of me (hello, networking & in-person events), i’ve been making sh*t up as i go

skirt tucked in my knickers!

like getting brave on social media 1st & writing this blog, which at times has felt like i just left the public bogs with my skirt tucked in my knickers! 

but turns out it’s procrastination with purpose. cause apparently, blogging is good for SEO (who knew?), & here i am, avoiding something else entirely but still getting sh*t done 

being a social media virgin meant that there were lots of shiny squirrels to chase – erm i mean, research to be done

but now that i've done that i kinda know exactly who i want to collab with & who i want to roll with – watch this space! 

i’ve also been procrastinating over levelling up my kweenie line in merch 

the “C” word i cannot abide

as you well know i'm a lover of profanity but the “C” word i cannot abide – ‘capitalism’

& well, creating merch has felt a bit like chasing the ‘capitalist’ dream

well that was until i discovered ‘colour friday’ the anti ‘black-friday’ movement 

it feels waaaay better not feeding the capitalist machine but i'm still navigating how to align my kweenie brand with my values without letting the weight of the system crush me 

i have been procrastinating over it all but i've not let myself fall into negative procrastination (cause for every ying there has to be a yang right?) you know the type of procrastination where your morning yoga pose starts with 

‘downward spiral’ 

then you doom scroll, binge-watch car crash TV, feel like absolute sh*t afterwards so then maybe do a bit of cleaning to make up for it? - no? just me then?

well, instead of that i've been on the hunt for the perfect eco-conscious partners to boost my kweenie merch line – just think a BFF for your days of retail therapy & accessories that’ll have you feeling like royalty – coming soon

it was flying high - until it wasn’t 

on the art front, positive procrastination has been at play too: a wee while back, i kicked off a new collection called ’wing gal’. it was flying high - until it wasn’t 

usually, i’m all about juggling a few pieces at once, hopping between them like a mad caffeinated squirrel on Pringles dust

this time, though, one of my kweens proper stumped me: Brigitte Bardot 

every single thing i painted with her? straight-up mince. total bin material. i procrastinated like f*ck every time i went near her 

so, i parked her & threw my energy into the big showstopper of the collection - Audrey Hepburn

showstopper in my latest collection
"wing gal" 
kweenie rebellious unapologetic painted collage pop art portrait original
featuring Audrey Hepburn - "soar"

Audrey was smashing it, growing stronger with every layer, but Bardot? she just wouldn’t bugger off. she was low key annoying, rubbing away like you know when you get an itchy tag on a new top?  

i mean, the image i’d picked of Bardot? absolute belter. she had the look, the vibe, the rebellion. but something was... off

 

initial kween in my latest collection 
kweenie rebellious unapologetic painted collage pop art portrait original
featuring Brigitte Bardot - "untitled"

turns out my procrastinating gut was bang on the money 

a wee bit of further research later, & i clocked it: Bardot’s got a proper dodgy past - some right ugly views on race & immigration 

not exactly kween material! 

that left me with a dilemma. she looked stunning, but there was no way i could keep her in my collection, not with that baggage 

so, i did what had to be done: i took a deep breath & i painted right over her 

bawled my eyes out

& yep, i bawled my eyes out after, i know dramatic much? i'll get over it i just needed to be dramatic first, i am an artist after all – goes with the territory! 

the painting over (not the crying) is up on my kweendom if you’re curious. no, i’m not brave enough to livestream my tears, not yet anyway - baby steps on the old vulnerability front! 

since then though, i've painted her wings but held off crowning a new kween 

after some serious thought & help from you guys on socials, i’ve found her: Nina Simone

new kween in my latest collection 
kweenie rebellious unapologetic painted collage pop art portrait original
featuring Nina Simone - "untitled"

now, Nina? she’s the real deal. a proper badass rebel kween 

she used her music & voice to shake the world up - fighting for civil rights, lifting people up, & refusing to fit into any box society tried to shove her in 

she’s the perfect mix of vintage glamour & raw power, resilience & rebellion 

Nina wasn’t just ruffling feathers - she was plucking them straight out. she’s a female icon of strength, individuality, & pure fire. yaaas, Nina!

at its fiercest!

so, yep, sometimes procrastination isn’t about avoidance; it’s your gut telling you to pause, rethink, & come back stronger. & that, my kweens, is positive procrastination at its fiercest 

so now i need to take all the positive procrastination into 2025 with me & build on it with 

“More passion. More energy. More footwork”  

ffs what has social media done to me (slaps head & rolls eyes!) 

but seriously my 2025 resolution isn’t about an unrealistic plan or toxic hustle culture 

it’s about dreaming outrageously, planning rebelliously, taking risks, putting myself out there & living my life whilst doing what i love but also being 100% kweenie, starting with: 

1. networking - holy shit, the floor is lava, but i’m doing it!
   
   
2. new merch - she’s coming & she’s f*cking fabulous! want to be the 1st to know then become a kween
   
   
3. in-person-events – GULP! but aye, i'm in, what the hey! 

because let’s face it, karma’s only a bitch if you are

so, here’s to tackling procrastination with a wee side of positivity cause remember:

“you did not wake up today to be a weak-ass bitch!” 

let’s make 2025 the year we say - “F*ck normal, I want magic!” 

come on tell me in the comments what your magical plans are for 2025, i'd love to hear them? 

love you, bye 

kx 

PS things i'm learning through my own wee weird levels of procrastination & using to make 2025 f*cking magic: 

1. start the day well, no ‘downward spiral’ yoga poses first crack
   
   
2. don't reach for your phone & doom scroll, instead listen to an art or business podcast whilst you paint or clean, it’s like buy one get one free!
   
   
3. listen to your gut it’s usually right - in fact it’s scientifically proven (but that’s a post for another day) 
   
   
4. negative procrastination is the drama kween i can 100% do without - awoman to that!

x